Being pregnant is an incredible moment in a woman’s life. I’ve wanted to have a baby for as long as I can remember. There was such a beautiful sense of peace and love in me when I found out I was pregnant. I immediately wanted to do everything in my power to make sure this baby would be born as healthy as possible.
After receiving the cancer diagnosis, that desire has grown. That instinct to protect my little one has only become stronger. My prayers and meditations are for both of us…surrounded in God’s light, protecting us, loving us and helping us through this.
Today, at our obstetrician’s office, we got to see our sweet baby. It meant so much to see him again before I begin chemo. He was super active (as he’s been at every check up) but this time, he was sucking his thumb! What a sweetie. It warmed my heart to see him enjoying his little home in my womb.
Many young women who go through cancer lose the ability to have children naturally. Chemo wasn’t a necessary option for me the first time around. Dodging this treatment is the main reason I’m able to be having this baby now. I feel so blessed to be given this gift.
Before the diagnosis, Sasha and I had already chosen a name. We came across “Joaquin” and fell in love for a handful of reasons. There are a few variations of the meaning of the name, but the one that resonates with me is “God has established”. And now, as I look back at the meaning of the name, it couldn’t be more perfect.
Something that will be giving me peace and strength in the upcoming months is that I’ll be seeing both my obstetrician and a prenatal specialist regularly to monitor Joaquin’s growth. Checking on him as much as possible will give me such peace of mind. I hope to see him just as active as I saw him today and I promise to do everything I can to keep both of us as safe as possible.
Send us your love. Help surround us in protective light. Keep baby Joaquin in your prayers and send me some extra strength, courage, and peace.
so much love,