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Hi there!

My name is Vivian Smith. It’s 2019.  I’m 37 years old and currently treating a fourth encounter with breast cancer as I do my best to raise a wild hearted 3 year old with my ridiculously wonderful human, Sasha.  Life is beautiful and tragic, bittersweet and magical and I plan on savoring each morsel of life I yet to have.

The quick cancer timeline is as so:

  • 2012 – Stage I – Treatment: Bilateral Mastectomy followed by reconstruction and total overhaul of my life to reduce exposure to day to day stress, chemicals, and other cancer causing elements.  Also, changed diet completely and began incorporating other natural healing modalities to increase my body’s healing ability.
  • 2015 – Stage III while pregnant – Treatment: Chemotherapy at 20 weeks pregnant.  After a far from dreamy pregnancy, I delivered Joaquin (now almost 4) at 32 weeks and 1.5 lbs.  His early birth was mainly due to Intrauterine Growth Restriction and aside from being very small, he was otherwise completely healthy.  I, on the other hand, had a very traumatic health experience after his birth that left me hospitalized for 20 days and a long recovery at home.  Shortly after his birth, I experienced Spinal Headache , then as a result of extreme high blood pressure from Post-Partum  Preeclampsia, I ended up in the ICU with PRES Syndrome (a reversible brain damage that took 6 weeks to clear up) and C. Diff (an extremely contagious and sometimes deadly bacteria in the gut often found in hospitals).  I fought for my life, while Joaquin fought for his and Sasha maintained grounded for us both. We feel so blessed every day that we have such a beautiful healthy child in our lives.
  • 2017 – Stage IV with a 2 year old– After 2 years of trying various natural anti-cancer protocols, scans showed a very aggressive explosion of cancer throughout my body. 6 liver tumors as well as cancerous activity in six different lymphatic systems and tumors on my sacrum, lower back and shoulder.  Treatment: Integrative. I underwent four rounds of chemo alongside cannabis and continued all my alternative medicines and diet. The follow up scan showed that MIRACULOUSLY showed that I was officially NED (No Evidence of Disease).  I went on hormone therapy which shut down my ovaries and drastically reduced the amount of estrogen available to any possible remaining cancer.
  • 2018 (August) – Stage IV – After a year of NED, a scan showed new progression in the liver.  we changed meds and gave a new type of chemo pill a chance.  After a few months, it was clear the medication was not working fast enough and I started chemo and cannabis again in March 2019.  After the 1st round of chemo, my tumor markers went down 50%!!! I’m holding up really well and looking forward to the last round on May 4th 2019.   Prayers for clear scans again!!!
  • 2019 (August) – Still in treatments – After 6 rounds of chemo and a massive amount of emotional healing and self-care, the scan on July 10th showed all metastasis had gone except for one small lesion in the liver.  We all agreed that a break would do my body good and allow me to gain some strength for further treatments.  Within weeks, my belly began to bloat a bit but I didn’t think much of it.  Soon, I had a low grade fever that persisted for a couple of weeks.  During this time, I became more and more weak.  I was tested for a variety of infections. Liver enzymes were escalated and soon, we realized the bloating was actually ascites from the struggling liver.  Ultrasound and MRI show some suspicious abnormalities and now, we wait for a liver biopsy to know how to proceed.  We realize how quickly liver failure can escalate, so we are maintaining our faith and determination in my healing while also being realistic about what can actually happen.

It has been a magnificently powerful journey. I’m so very grateful to have survived as many life threatening close calls as I have.  I know that it’s because of the massive amount of support I have received from family, friends, and total strangers, that I  have been able to overcome my circumstances each time.  I have no doubt that this time will also be the very same.  But the major difference, is that this time, I know I will move forward and leave cancer in the dust.  Please join us in imagining me strong and healthy living a beautiful life with Sasha and Joaquin….those are the images that keep me strong and I know they resonate throughout my whole body….the more people holding that vision for us, the more powerful it can be.

Thanks again for all the love.  It means the world to us as we go through this.

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Thanks for checking in,

Vivian, Sasha, and Joaquin


7 thoughts on “About

    • Lynn F says:

      I keep seeing your commercial and I have a friend that went through chemo. Not only did she lose her hair on her head, she also lost her eyebrows. Your headgear indicates you have lost your hair, but you have eyebrows. Why the deception?


      • vivavivian says:

        Hi Lynn, sorry to hear about your friend. Everyone reacts differently to each type of chemo. My eyebrows only thinned out, but I did not lose them completely. Sorry to hear you felt deceived by that. That was not the intention


    • Jen says:

      Dear Vivian, your strength is an inspiration!
      I heard about your cancer “journey” from my brother that is fighting his battle as well. His friend, & neighbor, had you as one of her students. She is also fighting cancer.
      It’s been just over a year since his diagnosis of colon cancer that spread through the intestinal walls into his liver. He’s done several rounds of chemo, chose a life style change in diet, and uses some alternative herbs. The cancer in his colon is no longer evident, but the liver has an increase in spots.
      In an article on Medium, you had mentioned your use of CBD/THC oils. As he is also doing this, I wonder what your regime has been?? RSO? High CBD, low THC? Increase in quantity & frequency? Will you please share with me?
      Thank you so very much! God Bless you & you’re family


      • vivavivian says:

        Hi Jen, sorry to hear about your brother. Who is his neighbor/old teacher of mine? Regarding cannabis oils, I would highly suggest having a professional recommend his dosing. What we are learning (through trial and error) is that different cancers react differently to different dosages. I have been doing “micro-dosing” 20mg CBD to 2.5 mg THC. This has been successful with the type of cancer i am fighting (hormone positive breast cancer). Higher doses of THC has shown to be problematic to hormone positive breast cancer fighters. For colon cancer, I believe RSO has been beneficial, but I don’t keep up to date on colon cancer which is why I’d suggest having a consultation with a doctor that specializes and stays on top of the most current information regarding dosing for specific cancers. Most doctors will do phone consultations. I would recommend Dr. Frankel at Greenbridge Medical Services in Santa Monica, CA. He is one of the top doctors with the most experience with medical cannabis dosing. Hope that information helps. and I wish your brother all the luck and success with his treatments.


  1. Jen says:

    Thank you Vivian, for your quick response, additional information and the support you Our angel in common was your teacher, Lee Hibbetts , and she was in Edinburgh/McAllen, Texas. I can email you her # if interested.
    My brother says that your dosage is very close to what his dosage is, but his is multiplied by three. He’s increased his dosage over time, and is currently using 65 mg CBD and 7.5 THC.
    He met with one of his doctors today, that wants him to think about doing chemo pills called Stivarga. My brother recently had a very bad reaction to his most recent, new targeted chemo treatment. He’s very conflicted to take treatments that are labeled, first thing, in bold letters, that it can cause severe damage to the liver. Living in Oklahoma, where cannabinoids are not legal, he appreciates the possibilities that alternative medicine can provide. He’s not totally opposed to chemo, but says he’s going rogue! Eating the best he can, CBD & exercise!! His next scan is early February.
    Thank you again for the name of Dr. Frankel and the encouragement to seek out doctors that have more experience with including cannabis with the treatments he needs. The journey will continue. Best of healing, comfort and LOVE to you! – Jen


    • vivavivian says:

      I adore Lee Hibbetts! Good luck to your brother. After diligently working to keep the cancer at bay with alternative methods, I was so disappointed that it came back so aggressively. Beware of stories of people who cured themselves naturally. Not because it isn’t true, but because their health history may not be the same as your brothers. Maybe they cured stage I prostrate cancer naturally. Maybe they had surgery but refused chemo. Every BODY is different and will react differently to different protocols. The Cancer Tutor is a fantastic website for alternative cancer treatments. One very important thing they state is to make sure your treatments are working faster than the cancer is growing. After conventional treatment alone failed me and alternative alone failed me, I STRONGLY believe that an integrative approach is key. Chemo may knock the body down, but alternative will support the body back to health. I wish him so much success with whatever method he chooses to do. Sending you all so much love.


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